Dear Readers, this series of Soul Healing were written more than 35 years ago.
It was when I was in low spirited, struggled for survival or eagerly
seek for help, and I wrote to Mother Mary.If you find the story seemed familiar, please don't assume we are talking about you. Just take it as a story. Dear Mother, I do not know how to start to tell you my problems in my work.
I joined SCS Ltd as a Senior Programmer Analyst from 1st June 1981.
Mother, I think she was not happy that I did not get involved in the battle between my General Manager and her. My General Manager is working in the Head Office and he always thinks I am rather special from other employees, he likes me. My General Manager was not happy that my Systems Manager ever dismissed my colleagues. Since the day I joined the Company, I station at the client's computer department and work with my Systems Manager, Nancy. For the past seven months, she dismissed two of my colleagues, transferred one of my colleagues back to Head Office. And just before my confirmation, she wanted to dismiss another one of my colleagues, I talked to her and asked her not to do so. Mother, nobody is prefect. I have 15 years experience in computer field, but my colleagues are new. How can she keeps quiet all the time and does not point out our mistakes. Then when she spots out our error, she takes it as evidence and tries to dismiss us. She cannot take us as weapons to fight against our General Manager. Mother, when I won the first prize in computer programming skills competition last August, she told me my colleagues said I was cheating. Mother, I knew that she put her words into others' mouth. My colleagues were very happy and they congratulated me when they learned the news from the Straits Times. Mother, when my Company wanted to organise a dinner for all employees last October, I was also to be a member of the organising committee. My duties then were to call my colleagues at different clients' computer departments and request them to perform show at the dinner. That was the time I needed to make use of the telephone. And my Systems Manager gave me warning that not to make use of the telephone too often. I did not tell my committee my problem, but the Personnel Manager helped me to call my colleagues. Mother, for the past 15 years with other companies, I had good assessment reports from my managers, senior officers. They loved me and even invited me to their house tea-party after I left them. Mother, I do not understand why my Systems Manager graded my conduct and personality as below average. Mother, I am now the second senior person at the client's Computer Department. My colleagues always come to me and tell me their problems if they have. I always help them and they take my advice. My Systems Manager told me she will not ask me to look after the department when she is on leave, she said my colleagues do not respect me. But when she is on leave or away, my colleagues always take me as their superior. Whenever there is a visitor, they will ask the visitor to see me. Whenever they have problem, they will tell me. Mother, please help me.
Your loving son |
My Systems Manager, Nancy, was very nice to me. But I was very surprised and
disappointed when she gave me a below average report last December.
The report she submitted to the Head Office was unfair to me.
She told me I can go and talk to the Personnel Manager in the Head Office
if I think she is unfair.
But I did not do so. She also recommended to demoting me,
but the Head Office did not do so.
I did not get any salary increment and the other colleagues got 20% salary increment.
Mother, money is not everything, but she should be fair to me.
How can she was nice to me and yet gave me such an evaluation report.