That gave me a shock! I never imagined that when I got angry, I would make a person 'going to the mad house soon'.

Actual I did not hate people. I never content anybody to death.
I was oppressed all along when I was a child, during my youth, and even when I started working. Sometimes I was driven to the wall.
I never imagined that I struggled to survive, and it brought about a terrible killing power.

From that time on, I always reminded myself not to get angry, not to get angry with anybody.

As I always remembered not to get angry, some people took me as a fool. They took advantage. Some of my friends dared not to say to me and they liked to sing in front of me a Mandarin song Too Soft-hearted (心太軟). Actually I was not that strong. I also could not shoulder so many grievances by myself. I just remembered that once I got angry, the other party would get hurt seriously. (Is that considered as kind-hearted? Is that kind of forgiven?)

It was written in the Bible Matthew 6:14
For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you.
Hence many Christians liked to mention about 'forgive'.

Once I was watching online Miracle Service. When the pastor mentioned about 'forgive', I was suddenly very angry. I then heard the pastor said immediately, "I don't mean you invite him for a cup of tea, or invite him to your house."

I thought the pastor saying that not from his note. I heard and felt more comfortable.
Whatever people did anything that hurt us, we could forgive them in front of God. Then we could just avoid them and not to get hurt anymore.

Prior to my study in the Bible College, I took up Healing Prayer courses in 1989. I had to thank Pastor James Shia Chung-Chien (夏忠堅牧師) from Taiwan. He led us to do the forgiveness in God for those who hurt us. At that time, I forgave many people who ever hurt me. I wept after that.

Forgiveness is a sign of strength. It is to show that we are strong.

In the recent years, for those who hurt me intentionally or unwittingly, I tried my best to avoid them.
I hold myself aloof from the world, as long as nothing concerned my God and my family, let it be.

Why? It is because I have to abide by my God's instruction - Do not get angry.