I wrote down almost everything for the day. Whenever I was happy or sad, it would be recorded in my journal.
Many Christians like to mention about "forgive". I hate to hear it in the recently years. Especially when the painful incident happened on me.
When a knife stuck into the heart, the Chinese character is 「忍」(patient or bear). But I am the one who feel pain. Those who talked about forgive, did they know the painfulness? You forgive those who hurt you. Will he be aware? Will he stop hurting you?

Although it was my habit to write journal, it was also a way of healing.
I was not aware why I was not affected by people's hurting. But I now understand that I poured all the sadness on to the journal. The sadness came out of my pen and left in the journal. Hence they were cleared from my heart.
That was relieved.

【Review 2015】
When the harassment in 2014 made me almost broken down, I reviewed my journal page by page and gradually I found out the mastermind of the cunning scheme.

I dismissed myself from all the voluntary activities, so I had much time since the beginning of 2015. I started to review carefully my journal from the year of 2010. I took note of all related funny happenings. Hence, I had a better picture on the cunning scheme.

Although those happenings recorded in my journal since 2011, why I was not aware then?
It was because I always trust people. I never imagine that a Christian could do the evil thing and against God's commandment.
Besides, when I was hurt, I recorded it in the journal. I would forget everything the next day when I woke up.

I woke up from the nightmares in 2014. 2015 was the year of healing for me.
Thank you God for helping me complete my plan in writing journal everyday.