Confidence
Restoring Process



The 1st International Chinese Opera Festival was held on 2nd to 6th October 2014. The last programme was the Symphonic Concert of Modem Beijing Opera "Azalea Mountain". I joined the Choir in early April. I was curious and hoped that I had the opportunity to learn traditional Peking Opera by joining the Choir. That was the dream I had for ten years.

Our instructors Teacher Bian Hui Bin and his wife Teacher Huang Ping taught us the basic music theory. They were very positive. They encouraged us. We learned both the Modem and Traditional Peking Opera.

I was slow in picking up and lack of memory. When Teacher Bian said that we could refer to the song sheets during performance, I was very happy. I did not like to go on stage. But when the time we had to make a decision, I agreed to join our classmates on stage. It was because our teachers spent their time and effort, and they were considerate.

During the week of rehearsal, my classmate Long fetching me to and fro. That made me spend less time in traveling.

The first few days of rehearsal, the conductor Teacher Hu Bing Xu paying more attention to the Orchestra. I enjoyed his conducting and the practicing of the Orchestra. I was at that time suffering from Harassing for almost two years. I was almost breaking down. I lost the confidence of myself and the organisation I provided my voluntary effort. I was engrossed in the practicing of the Orchestra that it became a therapy for my soul.

Two days prior to the performance, the conductor Teacher Hu Bing Xu started to pay attention to us, the Choir. When we were singing the line of 「光輝照耀天地明﹐天地明﹗」, he conducted the Orchestra with the baton with his right hand. He then looked at and point at me with his left hand, showing me the sign of opening the mouth wide. Finally he showed his thumb up of good! I was much released. Suddenly I gained back my confidence. After finished singing, Teacher Bian came and asked us whether we still need to refer to the song sheets. Oh! No Need!

Our pretty classmate Adeline Goh did the markup for me on the performance day. Another pretty girl Susan did the final touch-up. I was glad to hear Susan reminded Adeline that my lip stick was for personal use. Our friendly and considerate classmates.

The affable sister Bian invited me to take a picture with her. Her friendliness removed my fear of meeting with women during those months. Thank you sister Bian!

Teacher Huang asked us to take a picture with the artists on stage after the performance. The cameraman looked at us and said that the line of us was too wide. Hence some of us had to squat down in front. Only a few lady classmates did so. When the cameraman looked at me, Gu Qian one of the key artists who stood at my right hand side hugged me on my shoulder. Then the cameraman turned his eyes away. I was very touched. The artists were sitting at my right side during those days of rehearsal. They were from Beijing. I did not talk much to them. But whenever I met them, I smiled at them. Gu Qian hugged me with strength, so I was not bully. I recalled those few months I needed help to get rid of the harassing, but helpless. I almost cried out at that moment. Thank you Gu Qian.

On that day, I gave a personal key chain to Long, who fetched me to and fro for the week. I am low-key. I waited until the last day to thank him with my personal key chain.

For the few days during the rehearsal and performance, it was a restoring process. I gained back my own confidence.


Teacher Huang Ping (黃萍老師)

Teacher Bian Hui Bin (卞會賓老師)

Conductor Teacher Hu Bing Xu (胡炳旭老師)

Final rehearsal

Wang Run Jing (王潤菁)

Luo De Min (羅德民)

Gu Qian and Zhang Lan (顧謙和張蘭)

Huang Ping (黃萍)

The Orchestra

The Orchestra

Yang Chun Xia (楊春霞)

The Orchestra

The affable sister Bian

Pretty girls Adeline and Susan

Adeline made up for me

Susan did the final touch-up

The audiences

The artists (The stalwart Gu Qian at the right)


20-21.10.2014